Trisha Vicious

you took your hand and ran it down my cheek gripping softly my chin pulling me closer and then you kissed me your lips cracked from the years in the sun moist nonetheless I opened my mouth slightly you responded instantly your tongue entering me sweeping left around and to the right you lightly pulled back then closing off the melting heat pouring from your soul and you looked at me with those deep eyes bearing into mine yes, I felt it too

I took the bricks down one by one and lay them side by side  when the ends touched I built up reaching towards the sky this well of light shines so bright  darkness amplified  I cry no tears  this fear I bear safe, on the inside 

funny how fast an hour goes by realizing this pushes me forward and I see myself at the end of this life looking back at how fast time went by 

plucking the cloth from the ice bin placing it across her beating, beaten brow water dripping down, making its way around cool brown jewels for eyes stared into mine, wanting. "sometimes, all there is to do, is sleep" and she was gone

I will never be again who I was with you hiding but smiling gleefully I pushed I worked I laughed I cried so much I cried so much I cried so much inside you were never there and when you were, still gone writing or typing or listening to a different song but I sang I danced I smiled so hard still I cried I cried so much inside I cried so much your absence slowly killing me death near, by my side so I left and my world grew dark barely could I see only light emitting from others' hearts and still I wait awaiting that fateful day when my own heart beats again and leads me astray

vast squishy soft without you I spread out sleeping sideways occasionally layer blankets adding warmth arrange pillows on your side and sometimes I look up thinking of you somewhere there or perhaps there never however here again beside

and suddenly I realized... the entire time you were here I was alone